Other than the death of Sani Abacha, I have never had this much mixed feelings about someone's death. She was a pharaohess not only to me, but to her neighbours. I prayed that Allah should give me victory over her, never specifically asking for her death, but you see; she died.
Now, I am definitely not sad, but I cannot help feeling guilty about not throwing a party or something close maybe thankful prayer gathering. I feel that I am not showing enough gratitude to Allah.
You can judge me but you cannot understand if you've never had a modern day pharaoh (ess) in your life. She refused to let my people go, and I think her offsprings are planning to continue this way but how long d'you think they can do that for?