What's your religion? I don't have one, but I wanted to know what everyone else's is.
I'm glad you're a little open to the idea of "coming back". If you feel God beckoning to you, pls surrender to Him. He loves you very much and wants you in His Kingdom. I don't know what you expect from Him but I've come to see that He is the ONLY ONE that can be trusted. Man may fail, but He cannot.
@GL and CHRYSTYNE,
thanks, i really appreciate your posts, and i will be honest, atimes, i do find myself going back to this "GOD", but most times he just falls really short of wht i expect, things contradict themselves, what the bible says,things that happen etc, and i wonder is it all a big joke?are we all puppets in the hands of some supernatural force??maybe i might go back some day, and maybe i never will, but whatever the case, i guess time will tell,
@GL with this that u wrote,u really touched my heart.I'm moved and i love u for this.Thanks so much, u inspired my life.
@papermoon i'm so sorry u had to go thru all this that u've written.I will advise u to try again,and i believe its not going to be same again and remember,all pastors aint the same.
Just as my pastor will say,dont let anything come btw u and ur God,ok?I LOVE U GIRL.
i've heard several stories of abuse by pastors like yours. i think it is really bad. Jesus already passed a judgement against anyone who would make a child lose his/her faith. He said it would be better to hang a millstone on their neck and drown in the sea. I share in this sentiment.
While I did not experience any form of sexual abuse, several things happened that left me very much disillusioned with christianity/religion at a young age due to certain things i saw happening in the church. i began to slip away but i thank God He didn't let me go. because as a child, I had some personal experiences and had the christian value system built into me, I couldn't really go wild so ppl didnt realize i was slipping away. Looking back, however, I realize I was sort of bitter because I felt God fell short of my expectations.
One day, while going thru some of my childhood journals/diaries where i had written some of those personal experiences, i was struck with this thought: "the God I knew then was different". That thought kept tugging at my mind. I was passing thru some problems and somehow realized I needed God. I surrendered to Him again.
Now, I've come to realize that the problem was that as a child, i had associated certain religious personalities with God. Yes, I had experienced Him some time but I still thought of Him in relation to certain people. When this ppl disappointed me, I felt God had disappointed me.
During the time when I strayed away, I met a lot of ppl who had had several problems - their pastors had disappointed them and they had lost interest in God as a result. Now, I try to make them see God separately from humans. God has no grandchildren, we're all His children. He wants us to come to Him directly, not thru humans.
I've decided that I'm going to be a sunday school teacher so I can help children really know God at a personal level. The experiences I had as a child made it hard for me to go into some things I might have gone into. If I had known and loved God personally and not associated Him with pastors, I wouldn't have slipped away in the first place.
i have swung both ways ,
i was born into a muslim family, WASNT IMPRESSED WITH EVERYTHING I WITNESSED.(I READ THE QURAN ALL THE SHIZZLES)
then i became a christian, AND GOT SEXUALLY ABUSED/HARASSED OR WHATEVER YOU CHOOSE TO CALL IT BY A PASTOR(WHO REPEATEDLY SAID AND I QUOTE "GOD APPROVES OF THIS TYPE OF ACT,AND ITS IN STAGES, WHEN WE GET TO THE FINAL STAGE YOU WILL QUALIFY FOR HEAVEN, " THANK GOD WE NEVER GOT TO THE FINAL STAGE, I WOULD HAVE LOST MY VIRGINITY TO A PASTOR AT THE AGE OF 12. ) , AT A YOUNG AND IMPRESSIONABLE AGE, AND AFTERWARDS EVERYTHING I HAVE SEEN ABOUT RELIGION JUST DOESNT ADD UP OR TICKLE MY FANCY,
SO PERSONALLY I AM JUST ME, I JUST TRY AND BE GOOD AND SUPPRESS THE SOMETIMES BAD INSTINCTS THAT RISE UP WITHIN ME, I DONT SEEK ANY FORM OF PERFECTION, I MAKE MY OWN RULES, AND DONT TRY AND OFFEND THE NEXT PERSONS SENSE OF MORALITY(WHATEVER IT IS).
AND IF I DIE THE NEXT SECOND, THEN WHATEVER WIL BE WILL BE.
I'm a muslim. I believe there is only one God and that Abraham, moses, solomon, jesus and mohammed are all His messengers. I believe in what was reveled to them and that God does not begot neither is he begotten. He neither sleeps or is overcomed by tiredness. And most importantly, there is non like Him.